Oneliness.

It always seems to spring out of nowhere to catch you unaware. It happens when your primary sources of love gradually disappear. A relationship is fufilling, but when it's gone, it can be a huge source of stress. Friendships too seem to dissipate over time, even the ones you believed to be as solid as it could get. But I guess we all live and we all learn. That sometimes you need to be able to draw strength from others as well.

I realized that these days, I'm loneliest around people. By myself, things are emptier and less complicated. Friends here are truly great company, but they provide a different sort of understanding. Something monumentally serious happened over the past few weeks, that I'm not able to tell anyone. And holding on to this dark secret is mentally and emotionally draining. Which was why I finally broke down last night and cried helplessly down the phone to my dad. He decided to come over to Canberra for a week (and I'm darn excited, despite it all) and we will go to Sydney for the weekend.

P.S. And just how awesome was Dark Knight.