I know I will probably regret this tomorrow morning, but I just had such a horrible day, words cannot describe how bad. I hate saying no to people who need my help, I hate having to pretend to people like everything's okay, I hate I hate that I still feel so damn alone in this damn place. I want to go home, I want to give my sister a hug, I want to see my friends and tell them how much I miss them. I can't do it. I can't. I sit here in this room in this cold ugly fluorescent light and terrible thoughts stray into my mind, how cowardly I'm being, how I need to leave NOW and never look back.

I just wish, for this once, there would be someone who understands. Please.